Tuesday, October 6, 2009

STRUCTURE



So, it's been many, many, many moons since I went to an office on a daily basis and sat behind a desk. I've been a writer/actress/mommy for so long I forgot what it really was like to keep a schedule.

I used to fantasize about it when I'd feel a little stir-crazy, wondering what the real people out there in the world were doing. Always walking fast down the street in their business clothes, with somewhere to be.

What would it be like if I did that? Would it cure me of my restlessness? Would I finally feel like I was a contributing member of society??


Not that I wasn't contributing with writing books. At least, I told myself that someone must be enjoying them. I got royalty statements. Royalties, even.

I reassured myself that if people were actually slapping down money for something I wrote, then I couldn't be a total loser. Right?

Mind you, all of this internal-kvetching started after my mommy-role took a back seat to watching my kids fly off on their own. As I found myself less structured, I also found myself missing self-imposed deadlines. Which is bad when you're your own boss. Very bad.

What I needed was more structure. A framework, if you will. More face time with real human beings. Less time with my cats.


Moral of this tale: Be careful what you ask for.

All this is merely a preamble to the real topic of this post, which is--

I got a job.

An 8:30-5 real, sitting-behind-a-desk, legal-freaking-secretary job. (Did I mention I'm completely unqualified for this sort of work? The learning curve is daunting.) My friend, the lawyer, is in dire need of help (translation: someone who can write) and I need the work, so it's all worked out perfectly. Sort of.

Except now I have structure and less time to write and blog, and visit blogs. Which is all my way of saying that if you've noticed my absence on your blogs, (Okay, so you didn't notice. But I did) this is why. So I apologize that I'll be here a little less obsessively, er...often. I will get my working legs under me and figure out how to make all of this work. In the meantime--I'll try to sneak a peak between Production of Document demands and Special Interrogatories.

Because I miss you already!

10 comments:

Snap said...

Congratulations on the job. We miss you and your cats miss you, but we will carry on and enjoy you when you visit!

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Spending time with your cats is going to look pretty darn good after spending time with lawyers! Congrats and good luck with your new job!

Bonnie, Original Art Studio said...

Barb: I'm glad you found what you needed - and I will keep a close watch for the posts you do make. Don't want to lose contact with you!!!

challee said...

It will be a big change, but Im sure it will give you all kinds of intersting things to blog about right?? Hope your having a good day at the office!

Alicia @ boylerpf said...

How cool! I think it is great that you are taking on yet another phase in your life. Change is good...at least in my opinion. My motto has always been that I had better not stop learning until I was 6 feet under and then who knows what will come next! So you go ahead and exercise those gray cells with Special interrogatories and we'll be waiting to hear how the real world looks!!

Hybrid J said...

Congratulations on the new job!

I did notice your absence ;) and thought you must be busy with your writings. Guess I was half right - you're busy writing for the new job.

Don't worry about infrequent posts or visiting others blogs. I believe the important thing is that you're doing what you want and enjoying it.

Cheers and have a wonderful day! :D

staceyjwarner said...

I wrote about working a job as an artist on my blog...the post was called the scarlet letter...perhaps you'll be lucky and find time on the job to stay connected...

much love

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Hi Barbara! When you've got a minute, please stop by my blog and pick up your Kreativ Blogger Award (see my post of October 9th).

Renee said...

I'm like 'oh no' but thats good Barbara.

Yes, it is all about peace.

Love Renee xoxo

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